Al-Fatihah Untuk Arwah Emak

Semalam, 16 April 2006; genap dua tahun arwah emak saya kembali ke rahmatullah. Bukan saya hendak mengikut adat bangsa Jepun atau Korea yang sememangnya ada upacara khas mengingati ulangtahun kematian ahli keluarga mereka. Sekadar hendak mengingatkan diri sendiri supaya tidak lupa mendoakan arwah emak. Cukuplah saya tidak berupaya menjadi anak solehah sewaktu arwah masih hidup, besar harapan saya agar dikurniakan Allah kekuatan beramal dan seterusnya memberikan manfaat kepada arwah emak di alam barzakh.

Rasanya lirik lagu Ummi atau Mother nyanyian Sami Yusuf (Ya, lagi Sami Yusuf) paling sesuai menggambarkan perasaan saya:

Blessed is your face Blessed is your name My beloved

Blessed is your smile Which makes my soul want to fly My beloved

All the nights And all the times That you cared for me

But I never realised it And now it’s too late Forgive me

Now I’m alone filled with so much shame

For all the years I caused you pain If only I could sleep in your arms again

Mother I’m lost without you

You were the sun that brightened my day Now who’s going to wipe my tears away

If only I knew what I know today Mother I’m lost without you

Mother... Mother... O my mother How I long to see

O mother “Your mother, Your mother, Your mother” Is the saying of your Prophet

In my heart, in my dreams You are always with me mother

You went and left me O light of my eyes O comfort of my nights

You went and left me Who, other than you, will embrace me?

Who, other than you, will cover me? Who, other than you, will guard over me?

Your pardon mother, forgive me